Close to the edge

At Currajuggle Over the past couple of years, perhaps the most challenging thus far, I’ve become increasingly tired and some what forgetful… the small things get easily overlooked, however in recent weeks I’ve found myself, for example, reading dates entirely differently to what they are. I’ve had so much going on simultaneously, professionally and personally, that I’ve overlooked the one thing required to keep body and soul in-tact. ME!

Since that brief break over Christmas and time out on international flights, I’ve worked pretty much rock solid on OPEN CHANNEL. In the 6 weeks leading up to the launch not a single day went by without work being the  primary function. Three weeks prior to the launch it was 7 days a week, round the clock. Not that I’m complaining, I’ve got one of the best jobs in the country… at least for someone of my disposition, but I’ve not found the balance between it and other needs.

With that, and any time I have spare to fulfil my APC Board commitments, both as Executive Board member of the international APC and as Director of the local APC.au. With what’s left I’ve managed to squeeze in rehearsals and a smidgen of time in the studio, getting to the markets and finding another place to live… Then there’s still coming to terms with the end of the most important and longest relationship to date. Then there’s the anxiety one feels as a result of the grim nature of international events: global warming and the ominous cloud of fear cast over Australia and much of the world… Hell, I’m burnt out!

I’ve just had an enforced four days off. But it has been hard to not think of OPEN CHANNEL, managing phone calls and the day to day responsibilities of a Director. However, these past few days afforded me time enough to allow some perspective on all this. Time to make some changes whilst I still can… Going to Currajuggle next weekend.

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17 thoughts on “Close to the edge”

  1. Hi Andrew,

    Your new site looks great. Mature, not overstated, reflective, intelligent, with a touch of Germanic gravitas. Thanks for that. All is OK here. Putting another layer on this Lasagne Life; gaining some more perspectives to throw at you…so many reference points, so little time.

    Love and Peace,

    Craig

  2. Thanks, Craig… took me about four hours solid to get this site going and another couple to tweak it here and there… writing is a little stiff in places, but overall, a lot less maintenance than the previous which was getting spammed to hell and back…

    The Lasagne Life? From the land that spawned the Mud Lark and workhouses, lasagne is now such common fare?

    And yes, agreed about the reference points… am still catching up on those that I came across in Barcelona.

  3. Be kind to yourself before it’s to late.
    The last thing you want is a black dog nipping at your heels or consume you.
    Rest, reflect and look at clouds, trees and stare down the horizons of the past, while seeking the new horizons that accommodate your needs. I know, easier said then done in these maddening times.

    As long as I have known you, you’ve always had a good heart and spirit.

  4. Yes.

    I would like to add…..

    The personal life deeply lived always expands into
    truths beyond itself. – Anais Nin

    and

    Life has taught me to think, but thinking has not taught me to live.
    Alexander Herzen

    Take Care & Enjoy Currajuggle – right down from head to toes.

  5. Anais Nin always had way with the right words, in the right combination at the right time.

    The first step has been taken…

    Thanks for your support…

  6. Kin to Sorrow

    Am I kin to Sorrow
    That so oft
    Falls the knocker of my door —
    Neither loud nor soft,
    But as long accustomed,
    Under Sorrow’s hand?
    Marigolds around the step
    And rosemary stand,
    And then comes Sorrow —
    And what does Sorrow care
    For the rosemary
    Or the marigolds there?
    Am I kin to Sorrow?
    Are we kin?
    That so oft upon my door —
    *oh, come in*!

    Edna St. Vincent Millay

  7. “Come to the edge,” He said. They said, “We are afraid.” “Come to the edge,” He said. They came. He pushed them… and they flew.
    Guillaume Apollinaire

    Tired as you may be…..you have a lot to be proud of.
    I for one am proud to call you my brother.

  8. Yes, I’ll be finishing up my contract as Program Director at the end of August and working with OPEN CHANNEL on a project by project / consultancy basis. Official announcement due shortly.

  9. Hey Andrew,

    If you ever want a break under the stars we have a tee-pee with your name on it. I know it’s such a cliché, but we have plenty enough sky, trees, dirt and campfires to share with you.

    Hope you find that relief.

    Nick

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